Monday, March 10, 2008

No matter

how difficult my situation right now..I could only look unto God.

It's just awesome when I am in this state...I'd still want Him..longed for His words and just be with Him.

Is it this called the "VICTORY" of life? I don't know yet.

Yes, my mama is back again in the hospital. My bill is up to 49k excluding the would-be maintaining meds that would soon occur. My mama is now stuck in the hospital. My friends could only shake their heads.

I predict, it would be like this for the rest of the week, or even months or year..It will never stop...

So what I shall do?

Have self-pity, mourn and stress myself out to death? Will it benefit me if I stay this way in the first place?

Shall I blame and scold God again for letting these things happen to me?
Curse HIm?
Runaway?
Become an atheist?

I don't think so.
I may feel a bit shaken...
...sometimes I feel my heart stopped from beating..
my feet goes numb..my thoughts go blank..BUT...

It cannot stay long. It won't stay long! In Jesus name!

BECAUSE...God loves me..and once I start to feel that amazing love deep within me..
I am on the right track...:)

Do I feel stupid in believing this way?
Then, let me ask you.. Who would you want to believe?

2 comments:

  1. Hi Dinx, we don't really know each other except from PhilMug and maybe Facebook but I started reading your other blogs and found out your situation, thus. I am a Christian too, and just recently got to watch a video of Pastor Louie Giglio called Indescribable. I think this sermon is readily available on You Tube. I think this sermon will be very encouraging to you. If you have time, please watch it. You can D'load it here:

    http://www.northpoint.org/messages

    or watch portions of it here:

    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IV1ZpSMHIQw

    Amidst all your problems and all the hardships you are facing right now, always know that God has a plan and always wants the best for us.

    God Bless

    Joby Oreta

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  2. Thanks Joby..I will check on it. And thanks for the link...

    God's ways are mysterious. I know.
    For some time , I have been so naive and stubborn in dealing with it.
    Asks a lot of why's ...instead of just listening to Him.

    I am not working on my own strength right now. If I am, I should've been blown away along with my fears and frustrations.
    Life in this world sucks.
    But with Jesus around...I can see far from where I am standing --- the promiseland.

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