Even in disbelief I still end up praising Him

October 30, 2008
9.57 am

"Even in disbelief I still end up praising Him"

When
at this moment, I am asking myself
'what if God doesn't exist?
'what if I'm believing wrongly?'
What if these are just fiction that the world is trying to adopt for us to have a better world to live in?'

So many 'what ifs'

But you know what I ended up doing?

Got hold of some praise and worship songs and listened to
Hillsong instead.

Yes.
Even in disbelief I still end up praising and wanting Him more.

This is not me.

Must be the spirit in me.

Thank you Jesus for keeping me.
You are the Light that shines in me.

Let me share some comments I got from my facebook friend Sharon
when I posted the title on this blog as my stats.

"Reminds me of the story of John the Baptist.. the one who came before Christ.. who wittnessed to his coming and spoke about Him in ways that could only have been completely of the Holy Spirit.. He too in prison wondered.. hearing of what the Messiah was doing.. sent his disciples to ask JESUS "Are you the one who is to come"..
John saw Jesus and ... Read Morespoke with heavenly authority.... yet in hard times.. he too asked..
It is so easy to wonder isn't it not seeing with our eyes.. and also hearing and wittnessing all that is going on in our earth right now.. but yet the LORD beckons us to believe and stand firm to what He has said.. and promised that as believers there would be signs following.. So we too must see and strenghthen our hearts in these times..
In response, Jesus did not preach a sermon about belief, pray for them, give them an electronic sermon, or hand them a book. Jesus simply performed many miracles!!

And He answered and said to them, “Go and report to John what you have seen and heard: the BLIND RECEIVE SIGHT, the lame walk, the lepers are cleansed, and the deaf hear, the dead are raised up, the POOR HAVE THE GOSPEL PREACHED TO THEM. (NASB) Luke 7:22

Sorry about the long response.. it just came to my heart as you said that.. and also it ... Read Moreencourages me too as I looked at the scriptures.. I am praying so much for miracles because I have loved ones around me who do not yet believe.. It is hard not to get down about it and also wonder how to show them.. but I truly see that if I just believe I too can do what Jesus did.. THAT is exciting.. and another scripture comes to mind.. LOL but I can be long winded LOL.. best finish up here and hope that this encourages you also..

Must see pictures!

You have to see these pictures. I would love to see it in person. This is about 70 miles from Amarillo outside of town called Groom, TX .

(This must have been an awesome labor of love.)

Read message at the end of pictures!

These are the pictures of the crucifixion of Christ

Sculptured from metal by a man near Amarillo , TX ...
The crosses are made of metal also. The man did

this out of the kindness of his heart.

Someone donated the land

On which to erect them.

Who is Jesus?
HE IS JESUS
WHO IS HE?



IN CHEMISTRY, HE TURNED WATER TO WINE.



IN BIOLOGY, HE WAS BORN WITHOUT THE
NORMAL CONCEPTION;



IN PHYSICS, HE DISPROVED THE LAW OF
GRAVITY WHEN HE ASCENDED INTO HEAVEN;



IN ECONOMICS, HE DISPROVED THE LAW
OF DIMINISHING RETURN BY FEEDING 5000 MEN WITH
TWO FISHES & 5 LOAVES OF BREAD;



IN MEDICINE, HE CURED THE SICK AND THE
BLIND WITHOUT ADMINISTERING A SINGLE DOSE OF DRUGS,



IN HISTORY, HE IS THE BEGINNING AND THE END;



IN GOVERNMENT, HE SAID THAT HE SHALL
BE CALLED WONDERFUL COUNSELOR, PRINCE OF PEACE

IN RELIGION, HE SAID NO ONE COMES TO
THE FATHER EXCEPT THROUGH HIM;



SO, WHO IS HE?
HE IS JESUS!



JOIN ME AND LET'S CELEBRATE HIM;

HE IS WORTHY.



THE EYES BEHOLDING THIS MESSAGE SHALL
NOT BEHOLD EVIL,




THE HAND THAT WILL
SEND THIS MESSAGE TO EVERYBODY SHALL
NOT LABOR IN VAIN,



AND THE MOUTH SAYING AMEN

TO THIS PRAYER SHALL SMILE FOREVER.



REMAIN IN GOD AND SEEK HIS FACE ALWAYS.
AMEN



IN GOD I'VE FOUND EVERYTHING!



The Greatest Man in History
Jesus had no servants, yet they called Him Master.



Had no degree, yet they called Him Teacher.



Had no medicines, yet they called Him Healer.



He had no army, yet kings feared Him...



He won no military battles, yet He conquered the world.

He committed no crime, yet they crucified Him.


He was buried in a tomb, yet He lives today.


I feel honored to serve such a Leader who loves us!


If you believe in God and in Jesus
Christ His Son .. Send this to all on
Your buddy list.

If not just ignore it.

If you ignore it, just remember that Jesus said.
'If you deny me before man, I will deny you before my Father in Heaven.

Thank God for Ipods!

So many worldly activities..
Parties here and there. Dinner invitations.
Clubbings..

So little time.

But this won't allow me be away from Jesus for a long time.

Good thing I have my ipod with me.
I have flooded it with Pastor Prince' mp3s..
So anywhere I go..If I'm gona have that 10minute walk
towards the train..
or just waiting for my bus to come I'd just listen to it.

Thank you Steve Jobs. For creating ipods and iphones.
This makes me closer to God no matter how busy I am
in this world.

The Word shall keep me.

"True To Your Assessment"

Sharing another powerful daily devotional from Pastor Prince my dear friends.


"True To Your Assessment"


Leviticus 27:12
12… the priest shall set a value for it, whether it is good or bad; as you, the priest, value it, so it shall be.

Your colleague says that this week is going to be a lousy one because the new boss is mean. You disagree and say that it is going to be a blessed week. Both of you will go through the same week, but with very different outcomes. While your friend’s week will indeed turn out to be a lousy one, yours will be filled with the favor of the Lord!

In the Old Testament, when someone brought what he had to the priest for a valuation, whatever the priest assessed the value of the item to be, it was so. If he assessed it to be of good value, then it was of good value. If he assessed it to be of poor value, then it was of poor value.

Today, you are also a priest because of Jesus’ blood. (Revelation 1:5–6) And “as you, the priest, value it, so it shall be”. If you assess your year to be one of financial breakthroughs, so it will be for you. If you assess your life to be filled with divine health, so it will be for you.

There was a stroke patient who was bedridden. While listening to my recorded sermons, he assessed that with God as his salvation, his life would be long and satisfying. (Psalm 91:16) He believed that God would help him walk again. Not too long after his assessment, he was able to walk and was no longer bound to the bed! The next assessment he made about his health was complete recovery with God as his helper.

Actually, you have more authority than the Levitical priests of the Old Testament. They were of the old priesthood of mortal men. But you are of the greater and “forever” priesthood of Jesus! (Hebrews 7:8, 17) Not only that, you are a king-priest. (Revelation 1:6) In other words, you are a king as well! And as a king, your assessment is also binding because where the word of a king is, there is power! (Ecclesiastes 8:4)

My friend, this means that you have a double portion of assessment power. Therefore, boldly assess good things for your life, and it will be so for you!

SOLUTION - Hillsong United

It is not a human right
To stare not fight while broken nations dream
Open up our eyes, so blind
That we might find the mercy for the need

Hey now
Fill our hearts with your compassion
Hey now
As we hold to our confession

It is not too far a cry
Too much to try to help the least of these
Politics will not decide if we should rise
And be your hands and feet

Singing...
Hey now
Fill our hearts with your compassion
Hey now
As we hold to our confession

Whoa-oo-ooh
God, be the solution
Whoa-oo-ooh
We will be your hands and be your feet
Yeah Yeah

Higher than our circumstance
You promised and you loved for all to see
Higher than our protest lines and dollar signs
Your love is all we need

Hey now
Fill our hearts with your compassion
Hey now
As we hold to our confession

Whoa-oo-ooh
God, be the solution
Whoa-oo-ooh
We will be your hands and be your feet

Whoa-oo-ooh
God, be the solution
Whoa-oo-ooh
We will be your hands and be your feet
Whoa Yeah

Only you can mend the broken heart
And cause the blind to see
You erase complete, the sinner's past
And set the captives free

Only you can take the widow's cry
And cause the heart to see
Be the Father to the fatherless
Our Saviour and our King

We will be your hands
We will be your feet
We run this race for the least of these
In the darkest place we will be your light,
We will you light

We will be your hands
We will be your feet
We run this race for the least of these
In the darkest place we will be your light,
We will you light

Whoa-oo-ooh
God, be the solution
Whoa-oo-ooh
We will be your hands and be your feet

Whoa-oo-ooh
God, be the solution
Whoa-oo-ooh
We will be your hands and be your feet

We will run
We will run
We will run with the solution

We will run
We will run
We will run with the solution

We will run
We will run
We will run with the solution

Break Free - Hillsong United

“Speak to one another with psalms, hymns and spiritual songs. Sing and make music in your heart to the Lord, always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.” (Ephesians 5:19-20)





Verse 1
Would you believe me, would you listen if I told you that
There is a love that makes the way, it never holds you back

Verse 2
Who would have thought that God would give his one and only Son
Taken a stand upon the cross to show his perfect love

Pre-chorus
So would you break free, would you break free get up and dance, in His love

Chorus
His love never ends, yeah.
There's no escaping the truth, there's no mistaking its you
God forever we'll get up and dance, get up and dance and praise you
There's no escaping your love, there's no mistaking your light
Across the world we will get up and dance, get up and dance and praise you

Verse 3
Now is the time to take this freedom that has come our way
Offer our lives to see the glory of His name

Bridge
Never ? all our days
We are holy Lord, holding onto all your ways
We are holding on, holding on to all you've said and you've done
We are holding on to your love
Now we will dance

Law Or Grace - Verdict Of The Jerusalem Council

Yes, we are Christians..and the world generally will see
us and expect us to live our lives as perfect as Christ is.

But we can never be perfect. As long as we are in this mad,fallen
world, time and time again, we will fall. We will stumble. We will sin.

So don't strain yourself out with so much "goodness" that you want to have in you.
Naturally, as you go along your Christian walk, and as Jesus continues to live in you
..it will happen without you even noticing it.

I am not there yet. I am still struggling with my own "dirt".
Shall I be bother with it?

I boldly say "NO!"

Because I believe, the more I focus on my imperfections and my sins,
the more I will become it.

So instead , I focus my energy and thoughts on Jesus.

because Jesus' blood has made me perfect in the eyes of God.
I am so well covered that God sees me as gold...perfect and smells good.

Boy Am I so glad that I have come to know the TRUTH.
Now it has set me free!

This time I can live my life without restrictions. About myself.
About my relationships and my career.

Everything about me now is FREE!
Free from stress of what others might think of.
Free from lying symptoms of sickness..
Free from all fears of ALL FEARS!!

Sharing an mp3 from Pastor Prince that I just listened to this morning.
Enjoy peepz!

Integrity- Where Am I?

"Integrity"

Funny how this word can strike me twice in a day.

Once, when a friend of mine,
...upon knowing I still keep doing the things that hurt me the most.
And why I don't stand firm on the things that I believe to be are 'right'.
or as categorized as right have asked me 'Where's my integrity ?'

Twice, in my cellgroup. The topic of the night
It's where some characters on the book of Daniel
have shown integrity towards God inspite of their endangered situation.

As my friend puts it. Integrity is

"-standing for what is true
-being honest..about yourself, about your life, about ur convictions
and standing for it even if your circumstances or situation is endangered
another term wich can be related with integrity is compromise.."


In my current situation, "integrity" seems so hard to fathom.
For I know I have not been so honest with myself lately.
Moreover, grasping the thought of 'standing firm'
to what seem to be is right doesn't give me enough reasons
to just give in. Yeah Im stubborn alright.

Why am I still doing things that I know must come to a stop?
Why one day the inconsistency of my actions bring me so
much pain and then the next or few days I still end up doing
the same thing all over again.
Getting more pain a/nd hurt even more.

Why?

Yes so many why's.

There's some parts of the lyric in a song
'Love them like Jesus' of the Casting Crowns that says

"The love of her life is drifting away
They're losing the fight for another day
The life that she's known is falling apart
A fatherless home, a childs broken heart

You're holding her hand, you're straining her words.
You trying to make sense of it all
She's desperate for hope,darkness clouding her view.
She's looking to you

Just love her like Jesus, carry her to Him
His yoke is easy, His burden is light
You don't need the answers to all of life's questions
Just know that He loves her and stay by her side
And love her like Jesus.

The gifts lie in wait, in a room painted blue
Little blessing from Heaven would be there soon
Hope fades in the night , blue skies turn to gray
As the little one slips away

Lord of all creation holds our lives in His hands
The God of all nations holds our lives in His hands
The Rock of our salvation holds our lives in His hands
He cares for them just as He cares for you."

It's just easy to point on what's right or wrong.
Standing firm on what you think is "right" or "wrong"
starts the battle.

As for me. I will just keep resting on Him for I know
there will be a lot of questions from now on as I go along.

Do I really need to know all the answers to it?

Maybe yes.
Maybe no.

But one thing is needful. I'll just keep looking at the cross.
No buts or if's.
I am just thankful because as I continue to feel this way,
out of my confusions and my troubled heart..
Jesus' love for me has set me free!

The best prescription!

Now, I really need to do that haircut!

God's Protection Plan Against The Four Horsemen Of The Apocalypse

If you have read the Book of Revelations and have been baffled by the 4 Horsemen..this is the answer to your questions..Definitely would send shivers down ur spine!

My Random Thoughts (Part II)

Well, yeah. I thought I'd go on living hating Jesus and God forever.
I hated them because I thought they didn't know that I existed at all.
That I didn't matter to them.
That I was worthless that's why I deserved to live my life like
I was few steps away from hell.

I envied all the rich people.
I wished I was a famous celebrity that I could just charm anyone
away with just a wave of my hand and match with flying scripted kiss.


I wished I was somebody else.
And even wished I was born in a different set of parents.lolx!

These were the thoughts that kept running in my mind back then.
Little did I know.. I thought of so wrongly.

I was lost.. insecure..and a total LOSER!

Years passed...

I realised I was such a fool to allow my mind
to deceive me.

I realised...

Humans...no matter how much money they have in their bank accounts,
how popular they are..how complete their family circle would be ..
or no matter how wide their network of friends are all just the same.



...still


empty.



Why?

for 34 years of living on this planet.

I have asked that question too...

Like Solomon, I have tried, everything with all my might
to be happy and just keep it that way.

I buy my fave gadgets...work real hard to have a good and Godly
given career.
Be with someone for long...eat all the food that I want.

Name it.

On your side. I know, you are doing the same thing.
but just on a different level or situation or of different interests.

Right?

Yes!

Happiness...True and lasting happiness is indeed evasive.

The world can give you lots of quotes and sayings on how to find it.
Even "Do-it-yourself" stuffs would work.
It's really up to you .

Me?

I take it on a different level.

How?

(to be cont)

My Random Thoughts (Part1)

As a kid, I wasn't brought up with living in a nice, cozy,
air-conditioned room, having all the latest toys that I wanted
and all the fun stuffs a kid could ever wanted.It's not that my parents really didn't want to. It's because during those times, they had other priorities.
One of which was getting rid of that 'making-both-ends-meet' cycle.
As I have grown to my teen years, the cycle still kept coming on...

On and on and on.

Sometimes it got even worst. My late sister, being a hydrocephallic had made the hospital
her second home. And then my late dad, who was an alcoholic and a chain smoker back then, had suffered liver and heart disease. My mom gambled and had suffered hypertensions every once in awhile.
Yes, I can say that three of them were hospital-friendly.

Me? I was just watching over them as time went on. Kept wonderin what's it all about.
Kept questioning God alot of stuffs.

These events in my life had made me wonder. And boldly bombarded God with questions like
"Is this why the reason why you created me? To witness and feel all the bitterness and
hardships in this world?"

I could'nt just fathom. And I frozed with all those questions stucked in my head. Wonderin if God was real or not...

During those times, I didn't know Jesus that much. Being a Roman Catholic, I was more introduced to the Saints and Mama Mary which gave me an idea that Jesus was just one of them. I'm still glad though I was blessed enough to know a bit of Jesus
back then in my school since my parents were not church goers.

I remember as part of our Christian Living subject, we had to pray devotedly the rosary in the whole month of September. In the morning, before and after recess, and before we took off. For fours years of my highschool life, I dreaded that month. It was really a total bore for me. Out of desperation, I was able to ask our teacher why we needed to do that. She just said, "To honor" her and it is something that God wanted us to do.

Just that.

Then I concluded to myself, "That's why my parents don't go to church!"

That was the start of me not going to church and not choosing to be with Him maybe
because out of Fear or out of boredom.

I told God," You're such a boring God! If you're real why you demand so many things from us?
We have had enough troubles of our own and yet you still want a piece of us?!!"


Fastforward.

I graduated and have my own job.

I witnessed how the world turned out to be.
Earthquakes.
Tsunamis.
Murders.
AIDS.
Terrorism.
SARS.
Wars.
Deflation.
Recessions.


For 37 years of my life, these events are ever so present.
Not a single moment passed by that nothing of any these have come to stop.

Then I asked God again.

"Where are you? Why are you letting these things come to pass?
Are you having fun right now?! Look at your people! Look at the world!"

Somewhere ..you can see some Christians telling you
"God is mad! He is coming with fury because of your sins! Prostitutes! Corrupts!
Adulteries! Repeeent!"

Adding insult to injury.
I hated Jesus.

(To be continued)

Your Blood

Good Monday morning everyone! Let's praise the Lord this time
inspite of our every situation. Don't just say "He may" deliver us from
our pains, heartaches,financial setbacks and sicknesses!
But boldly say. HE HAS DELIVERED US from it all!!
His blood has done it soooooo execeedingly!

Sing with me...

2year old boy worshipping God

Found this on youtube..
Wow! 2yr old boy Joshua sings "I See Grace"
and he looks so cuuute praising God even more with his arms open wide and
eyes closed while singing.


See Grace Album 2007.
written & composed by Karen Lim
here's the lyrics

Jesus my help,
I call on Your name!
I cast my cares on You.

Jesus my hope,
My tower of strength!
My faith is found in You.

I see You pierced, wounded for me,
When I look to the cross, I see.....

I see grace,
Sealed by Your sacrifice.
I see love reaching for me.
Precious blood,
Washes and sanctifies.
Healing flows,
Setting me free.
I see grace.....

Bearer of sin,
Afflicted and tried!
You paid redemption's price.

Bearing my curse,
You've set me on high!
Your death has brought me life.

I see You pierced, wounded for me,
When I look to the cross I see.....

I see grace,
Sealed by Your sacrifice!
I see love reaching for me.

Precious blood,
Washes and sanctifies
Healing flows,
Setting me free.
I see grace.....

Be like the donkey

One day a farmer's donkey fell down into a well.

The animal cried piteously for hours as the farmer tried to figure out what to do.

Finally, he decided the animal was old, and the well needed to be covered up anyway;

it just wasn't worth it to retrieve the donkey.



He invited all his neighbors to come over and help him.

They all grabbed a shovel and began to shovel dirt into the well.

At first, the donkey realized what was happening and cried horribly.

Then, to everyone's amazement he quieted down.

A few shovel loads later, the farmer finally looked down the well.
He was astonished at what he saw.

With each shovel of dirt that hit his back, the donkey was doing something amazing.

He would shake it off and take a step up.






As the farmer's neighbors continued to shovel dirt on top of the animal,

he would shake it off and take a step up.

Pretty soon, everyone was amazed as the donkey

stepped up over the edge of the well and happily trotted off!

MORAL :


Life is going to shovel dirt on you, all kinds of dirt.

The trick to getting out of the well is to shake it off and take a step up.

Each of our troubles is a stepping stone.

We can get out of the deepest wells just by not stopping, never giving up!
Shake it off and take a step up.








Remember the five simple rules to be happy:

1. Free your heart from hatred - Forgive.

2. Free your mind from worries - Most never happens.

3. Live simply and appreciate what you have.

4. Give more.

5. Expect less from people but more from God.








GOD BLESS ...!

I am hurting...

I'm hurting today...my past and my present is hurting me again..

But I shall not let this moment come to pass without teaching me
a lesson...or a revelation.

pause.

Tears filled my heart last night as the pain is trying to crush me down...

Look at me.
I am focusing on "myself" again..
What shall this moment make of me?

I say, NOTHING BUT DEPRESSION. AND FRUSTRATIONS..

It's true ,
when you think so much of the "I", "myself", "my pains", "my heartbreaks"
it doesn't give you anything but PAIN. There's so much darkness in it.

Right now, as I feel all these in me. Let me share with you the video
I created for Jesus few months back. Watching this eases my pain..because
in here I am reminded of Jesus taking all my pains and burdens when He was crucified
2000 years ago..
Stay on for the last part where I have used The Passion of Christ photos.
It's my most fave part.